When I turned 28 though, something changed and I felt that I had to get some kind of spirituality in my life. I later learned that the 28th year is what is called in Astrology "the Third Saturn Return" and many people see a drastic change of perception around this time in life. So I began my personal research trying to find that spark that would fire up my spirit. At this point my ex-wife and I went on pilgrimage to the Shrine of Our Lady of Lourdes, France. My ex was a non-practicing cradle Catholic and I was nothing at the time, so in truth the trip was a very inexpensive way for us to see the south of France. It was not our intention to attend any of the festivities, but we decided that we should at least attend the opening ceremonies. During the mass a statue of the Virgin Mary turned it's head and looked right at me! Stunned, amazed and more than just a little freaked out I figured since Mary was part of the Catholic Church, I was being called to be Catholic. Upon returning to the states I immediately went to my local parish and went through the Rite of Christian Initiation of Adults. I did my best to be a good Catholic for several years, but I have to admit I knew I'd made a mistake even before the year long initiation was complete. No one wanted to talk about Mary!

I prayed the rosary often and continued my own research into the history of the Church and the philosophy of other religions. After a while I came to realize that much of what the church taught was not necessarily true and I realized that my experience in Lourdes was the Feminine Aspect of God. And Mary's appearance to me was that "Goddess Aspect". Out of respect for the Church I stopped attending the mass as equating Mary as Divine is heresy. About a year later, and after my ex and I split, I was in a used book store and found Buckland's Complete Guide to Witchcraft. I said, "I gotta get this book and put it on my coffee table, it will totally freak out my friends." Little did I know that this book, bought as a gag, would change my life. I dove into everything "Witchy" and Celtic and was consecrated a priest on Samhain of 2000. The year before this I started a relationship with a wonderful woman who was very much into Metaphysics and so my veracity for knowledge headed in that direction as well. Over the years she and I aided in the creation of several active circles in NW Montana before we went on our separate paths.

We now arrive at the present and through my continuing personal study I have come to realize that Magick, the manifestation of reality in conformity to my will through focused intention and observation, is the only fundamental truth. I still honor the Lady and her Consort, but I now understand that they are personifications of the Duality of this Reality. They, as well as every other energetic in the universe is ultimately Me and I am ultimately Them. We are the ultimate Universal "I".